Last week we were going to be a team in Dungeons and Dragons. he was going to be a goblin who practiced necromancy and I was going his translator, a half-elf alchemist that sold blue meth.
The first time I met him he hugged me and picked me up. On New Years he helped stop several fights and helped clean up. Two weeks ago he came over and a bunch of us watched hilarious videos and we made a Mii of him. Last week he greeted me first because we had forgotten to hug it out the weekend before. He said ” i havent given you enough love lately”.He had his own heavy duty set of D&D dice he kept in a velvet crown royal bag. I see him holding both chip bowls last week on his lap and pretending he wasnt going to share, drinking Asahi and talking about how people shouldnt need other people to feel happy or complete in life. I remember him shaking his shit when someone started playing the Pokemon theme song, and I remember him leaving when we started playing boy bands and saying nothing could top that. demonstrating how he would flex while waiting at intersections to freak out the driver next to him.
I didn’t really know him, but I will remember .
I don’t think that’s fair. For you to say “I don’t want to hear anymore” and that I am “falling for” it or whatever. Firstly, I’m not, and for you to even say that is annoying. Secondly, lets say I was. Well so what? And as my friend you should listen and not write it off, I have listened to countless relationship stories and drama on your end for ten years. So I think it should be fine if I have a two minute conversation with you about a guy I have shared like Ten text messages with. I don’t think that’s too much to ask.
I think last night really helped me get back into the friend zone with him. I don’t want to have romantic feelings for a friend, it’s uncomfortable and awkward and desperate and it would only fuck up a fantastic friendship. Normally I am always putting my feelings aside, but in this case I think they are just changing back to friend-feelings, thank Jesus. Although, I did give him advice that I should maybe follow: don’t ignore your feelings for someone- you owe it to yourself to explore it, even tho it’s scary and nauseating. I will follow my own advice next time.